What a gorgeous man!

What a gorgeous man!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

I Miss You ...

It has taken me so long to write on here. After having the idea, I just couldn't face it - I would rather have given you a ring, had a chat, anything than face that typing here is the best that can be now.

I miss you, I guess you can see that. You know, even when I am busy and don't look like I am missing you, I am! Truly, I dont think many moments go by when I am not thinking about you. Amazing though, I thought I was doing okay earlier, then I picked up that little calculator ... you remember we got it as a prize when we were on holiday together. We had so much fun, playing Bingo in our pajamas, how silly were we, the kids loved it. And the calculator was a prize. I just held it briefly when I was tidying up today and then dropped it like it burnt. Then I was in bits. You see, I cant bear that this is it, you really are gone. No more holidays, no more bingo, or if we try, it will never be the same again. And then it hurts, hurts so much that my breathe is taken. And I hold my chest tight just to try and hold my heart together as the pain roars in.

You were my lovely Dad, my solid rock. You were so wise and I miss you.

I will talk to you soon,

I love you to the moon and back.

Becky
xx